*The unedited version will be posted in a few hours. * Update – It will be posted when I’m ready. Life sucks right now and I am going to sleep for the next … until I wake up.
Miscarried in Russia at 10 1/2 Weeks
It is unimaginable the pain I felt that day. I am a much stronger woman from this. I dealt with contractions for about 6 hours alone and then 4 hours of strong contractions until the baby came out. It was the worst pain ever but I delivered the baby alone in a flat. Then someone came by and called an ambulance. To be honest, that was when the real nightmare started. But imagine being in a country where common things such as toilet paper, soap, and pads are not common in hospitals even. Then put yourself in a place where hardly anyone speaks English or any language close to a language I could speak. Then enter the exams and needles. I had to learn Russian from an app before and after surgery to get any information. Worst pain of your life, your baby died, and you are learning Russian. No wifi. Just a downloaded app. I feel like I can do anything after what happened.
I was very fortunate to have a few people help me translate the nurses occasionally. One even brought me toilet paper and food. This world has some amazing kind people.
This has made us parents and we will always remember our baby and the funny cravings and food aversions. Our baby had personality from the start. I’m sure I was having a boy.
I’m hoping my experience can help other women know how common this is and also how you can do everything right, prenatal vitamins for three years, regular blood tests to show you have the perfect body for a baby… and it can still happen. I couldn’t have done any more than I did. I am not ashamed, I am strong.
Elves Are Never Bored 